Haiz.. Found out my appeal was UNSUCCESSFUL =/ Nvm... Work hard.. But Literature like very hard sia.. scared i ltr fail badly.. than die le.. URG?
Lot's of people going overseas.. and i'm no.. Grateful for that.. Next wed gonna watch movie with some frens.. Ahh.. It's Christmas Carol and have to specially go AMK to watch the movie in 3D format. Than.. there's a movie my bro wana watch.. It's Alvin And The Chipmunk 2! I've watch the first part and find it quite nice.. Ah.. Watching with mom and bro..

Haiz.. Kinda lazy to update.. Recently it's cold.. BRR.. At night so cold can't sleep.. Ytd i had a nightmare.. Real life!!!
I was bathing halfway when smth black and brown caught my eye, i reach out and touch it. It was haard.. I couldn't tell what was it so i wore my specs. Than to my HORROR, it was a insect. Thr no. 1 insect i hate and scared most. BEETLE!!!! I had a really really bad scare =( I was practically screaming HELP!!!! my mom was watching tv and cannot hear me =.=
I use a tub to prevent it from moving and I quickly bath finish. Than an obstscle came. The tub was blocking the door. Pausing for a moment, i push the tub and carefully not to let the stupid beetle to come out. I ran towards my mom. Ask her for help.. She kill it.. Eeeee
And i was save... Thank God..

This song is so meaningful.. I have it in my phone too ^^
I.. I should have stop long long ago.. Why didn't I? Now i can't mend this anymore...
I only have me and myself to blame.. Just because of 1 small mistake i've made, everything is gone..

Whenever i try to give up on you, it seems that i will be drawn to you even more... Why?!?! You might not realise this but you're alr feeling up th empty space in my heart.. How...? You didn't do anything either.. I'm the only one... Minding everything..

Urg!!! Can't believe i'm going 3/4!!! AHHH!!! Sigh.. I want to be in 3/5.. All my friends there.. 3/4 got so less people i know..Oni a few =(
Life is full of changes.. This is one of them.. Without changes, life maybe boring.. Changes change us too.. But it may not.. Ahh!!! At least i very lucky cos there's one person i hope not in the same class.. And his not the same class!!! =DDD So happy..
But somehow, after i noe the results, I'm kinda sad.. Dunno why..

I've nv seen such a stupid and stubborn person before, Not until today.
I'm fustrated and tired. every problem has a cure isn't it? But in this case i dunno. Life..It's so tiring.. When i thought things are started to slowly smoothly moving, my life shattered. Have you ever felt this way? I cried every night, trying to be strong in front of others. Couldn't sleep. What's wrong? I make life difficult. Not mine but others.. Shameful huh? Maybe i shouldn't be born into this world. I don't belong here either. From the start, the moment i came into this world.. Accidental pregnancy? *Smirk. Mom should have aborted me. I've only gave her pain.. Came home, What's the first reaction? Black face. Started to scream.. Scolding starts. Haiz.. Enough of it..

I'm scared... Very scared... i need people by my side but none... Mom went out..
Living me ALL alone ><
Damn... Help me... Lucky i log on facebook... My 'Good Friend' Jeremy,console me..
Gave me advice.. calm down alr.. Phew.. Oh God.. Pls dun scare me anymore...

Man... So tired... I hate holidays man... Damn freaking boring..
And... I'm kinda sick... Who cares? Haha...
What's a person with no feelings? They're numb.. Their heart is frosted..
It will take months,years or maybe forever to melt it..
And what's the cause of it?
Trauma? Past experiences is the cause..
But there is some cases where people are just numb without any causes..
Thinking,actions does affect.. They just naturally have a 'power' or 'feeling' that PUSH them away from their heart..
I have experience this and recovered =D
But... You must have the will-power to do this..
Only you are the one who can 'save' urself..

How can i make someone to give up on me without hurting his feelings?
than, a friend told me not to be afraid to hurt his feelings, and i did.
I told him how i feel... And his hurt...
Now i'm in a mess...
But i didn't regret what i've done...
also... Maybe it's time to let go... Forget about him...
I'll just live my life as peacefully as i can...

eeee holiday nth 2 do de.... at home only use com,watch tv,go out..........

veery sianzz gonna die of boredom..

Lol... This is my third blog.. And it's for public view! Though i dun think people will come...
It's the holidays... Gonna be frickin bored...